Kathy's Blog

hold on

kathyfeng — Sat, 10 Sep 2011 12:14:01 +0000

i’m sorry. but if not, after 10 years i would still have the same yearning. But it’s not fair that everybody aims at me as if i have a metal heart. Good that i’m getting used to this. Tears don’t help anything. Head up and be strong! There are a lot of things out there waiting for you to deal with! The only way out is to work hard! VERY HEAR!

i bought an eye cover

kathyfeng — Mon, 20 Jun 2011 13:05:06 +0000

Tidie tidie tinie Kittie is going to bed

kathyfeng — Sun, 19 Jun 2011 17:05:41 +0000

headache, yawning

kathyfeng — Sat, 18 Jun 2011 16:38:31 +0000

Work hard Kathy, and Mike!

kathyfeng — Sat, 18 Jun 2011 15:28:39 +0000

life is not easy

kathyfeng — Sat, 18 Jun 2011 14:42:52 +0000

Life is not easy. Purely happiness and without suffering or enduring is not the true life. One has to admit that.

Endurance is a virtue.

Self-photo-taking freak!

kathyfeng — Sun, 12 Jun 2011 17:08:14 +0000

In the library study. Midday. 37 Celsius, no AC. So….Kathy figured out she could entertain herself in some way…

no fundamental change

kathyfeng — Sat, 04 Jun 2011 17:42:00 +0000

I love them, still.

And, mom, i know how much pain you bear, or maybe that’s even beyond my comprehension. I’m not a mom after all. That’s what you said.

But sorry, i’m sorry, mom. Also dad.

Something persistent agonizing me. I’m using their money doing sth that is very much against their will. But even in the future when i can fully independently support myself, i still can’t get rid of the agonized feeling on my conscience. They are sad and disappointed. They are concerned of me, rather than being angry. But there’s also a kind of pain elusively hides itself somewhere deep in my heart.

I know, i’m the person who choose to suffer.

However, should I have my own children some day, I wouldn’t expect them to stay in the same place or same country with me. They also have their own life, their own life partner, their own children and their work and so on. I would be happily seeing them enjoy their life in the way they like. Yes, i admit, I’ll be thinking of them at times, and probably sometimes very much wanting to see them. But after all, I know, the one who will share a lot of time with me, even the last minute of my life, should be my partner. It is him.

Yes, it is something called leaving.

jotting down

kathyfeng — Mon, 30 May 2011 14:07:00 +0000

好怀念在北京的日子… But you will not read this hon, right? Or maybe you would go for google translation?

just a little woman

kathyfeng — Fri, 20 May 2011 15:23:31 +0000

But just a little woman, knowing sth about quite a number of things but no expertise in any of them. That kind of person who, most of the time, comments and responds to other people’s speech but seldom expresses her own view. No deep understandings on serious issues. A little woman. Always in hope of being a sophisticated person but in the end still a life-triviality enjoying little woman. Should there be any change in the future?