hold on
10 Sep 2011 Leave a Comment
i’m sorry. but if not, after 10 years i would still have the same yearning. But it’s not fair that everybody aims at me as if i have a metal heart. Good that i’m getting used to this. Tears don’t help anything. Head up and be strong! There are a lot of things out there waiting for you to deal with! The only way out is to work hard! VERY HEAR!
life is not easy
18 Jun 2011 Leave a Comment
Life is not easy. Purely happiness and without suffering or enduring is not the true life. One has to admit that.
Endurance is a virtue.
Self-photo-taking freak!
12 Jun 2011 Leave a Comment
In the library study. Midday. 37 Celsius, no AC. So….Kathy figured out she could entertain herself in some way… 
no fundamental change
04 Jun 2011 Leave a Comment
I love them, still.
And, mom, i know how much pain you bear, or maybe that’s even beyond my comprehension. I’m not a mom after all. That’s what you said.
But sorry, i’m sorry, mom. Also dad.
Something persistent agonizing me. I’m using their money doing sth that is very much against their will. But even in the future when i can fully independently support myself, i still can’t get rid of the agonized feeling on my conscience. They are sad and disappointed. They are concerned of me, rather than being angry. But there’s also a kind of pain elusively hides itself somewhere deep in my heart.
I know, i’m the person who choose to suffer.
However, should I have my own children some day, I wouldn’t expect them to stay in the same place or same country with me. They also have their own life, their own life partner, their own children and their work and so on. I would be happily seeing them enjoy their life in the way they like. Yes, i admit, I’ll be thinking of them at times, and probably sometimes very much wanting to see them. But after all, I know, the one who will share a lot of time with me, even the last minute of my life, should be my partner. It is him.
Yes, it is something called leaving.
jotting down
30 May 2011 1 Comment
好怀念在北京的日子… But you will not read this hon, right? Or maybe you would go for google translation?
just a little woman
20 May 2011 Leave a Comment
But just a little woman, knowing sth about quite a number of things but no expertise in any of them. That kind of person who, most of the time, comments and responds to other people’s speech but seldom expresses her own view. No deep understandings on serious issues. A little woman. Always in hope of being a sophisticated person but in the end still a life-triviality enjoying little woman. Should there be any change in the future?
